Bad Day

Well, this is not the song by David Powter or I'm gonna sing that song. But indeed, I seriously had a bad day today.

First thing in the morning, came to office is get "firing" from my GM. I just don't understand Malaysian employer/boss they have such mindsets that they can never praise their employee/staff. By even just telling you "You've done a great job, but no doubt there are rooms for improvement. Keep it up, I'm sure you'll do better..." bla bla bla.. something like that. Perhaps even being a leader of the organization, teach those who are under them, nurture them, guide them to be the next future leader. Be it in another company or being your own boss.

Sometimes I really wonder what would I be like if I'm the BOSS. Would I be like them as well or like those Americans' boss where they can be cool, at the same time being your boss. At the end of the day, they portray themselves as your boss, where you can have fun in your work, and not your Mummy or Daddy in the company, baby sitting you.

My boss today "fired" me because I've closed one sales that he's also approaching before him. I do know and understand he's going after it and I also being informed that the sales can be close as first-come, first-serve basis. And now I closed it first, not getting praise but scolded. I've closed it a RM10,000 deal but he was saying the deal can be done at RM30,000. True, enough that the client wanted a RM20,000 package but it has sold out. Therefore he opted a smaller package - RM10,000/RM12,000. I'm sure budget is an issue to them, since I've been following up with them. NOT that I'm taking it personally, but he told me I should handle this "business" in a smarter way. Does that calling me I'm STUPID???!!

I'm feeling demotivated at the moment. No at the right pace of working or getting sales. I really need something to get me kick-start again. Oh, God help me..

I think that's only best way I can go to. "Tangible" enough? I'm sure it is but really gotta get myself something to move on. MADNESS. Lord, please help. I'm gonna kill myself.... DEPRESS.

I know I should be alright in a lil' while. Just gotta be patient get focus back on again on my work and my event.